One week

Given that in one week I have to decide my future, this deserves a post. Exactly, in about 120 hours I need to enroll in a college, or decide that Brazil will make me happy enough and that I will spend six miserable months doing "cursinho" to enter a college. Now, what holds me here? My family. I am eighteen but still not independent at all emotionally, my mom is still the person I go to when nothing goes the way I wanted. My boyfriend, a wonderful person who has taught me lots, who is someone I would marry in my near future and who I really don’t want to lose. If things work on our side we can probably figure something out, but this is what I’m most afraid off. Living alone is probably haunting but still not what most hold me here. Now, knowing that I will live in one of the cities I consider fantastic, New York, is certainly a keeper. Knowing that I won’t lose time doing the "cursinho" and even having the chance of not entering a good college is AWESOME. Probably knowing that I can still apply to the college I really wanted to attend in Paris and that being already a second year student will help, is what pushes me THE MOST. Life’s not easy, and when we have options it becomes even harder. I hope that this tough decision will teach me new things and that I am able to choose something that will at the end be the most worthwhile thing. I hope that wherever I go to I will be happy and satisfied and that I won’t miss too much my mom and my dad or my boyfriend.